Poem: Candy

With your too-ready smile;
I wonder if you mean it.
A strong and handsome woman
stronger than I remembered.
Beautiful still,
more refined,
graceful and reserved.

But now I remember you then
and it's too late.

I wonder if I should have held you...
You're too strong
for me to be able to tell.
Maybe you don't even know yourself.

I wish I had held you,
if it would have helped.
Or just held your hand.

Puke if you must,
as long as it makes you feel better.