Poem: I Am All Alone

My back gets steadily worse.
I am all alone.
The pills will not keep working for ever.
I am terrified.
I am alone.
I could loose my ability to walk,
my back gets steadily worse.
What will the surgeon say?
I'm scared.
I'm alone.
Surgery may help,
surgery may cripple me.
I don't know what to do.
There is nothing I can do.
My back gets steadily worse.
I am all alone.
I will either get surgery
or I wont.
I'll either get SSI
or I wont.
I'll either become crippled
or I wont.
Like a disease;
my fate is uncertain.
All I can do is live with it.
All I can go is wait.
Until I see the surgeon.
Until I get more tests.
Until I get the mail.
Until I get the check.
Just wait.
And try to enjoy my time on legs
while I have it.
My back gets steadily worse.
I am all alone.