Theory: Class Differences, Homostasis, & Isolation

I've described in these pages before how real "class" is as well as how comforting routines can make even the most terrible and deprived of lives bearable and even pleasant. In addition I've shown repeatedly how the breaking of my established routines by: visitors, visiting others, traveling, interlopers, talking to others on the phone, writing to others, etc... Can break the comfort of my routine, especially when the intruder or place of visit is of a different class than myself (i.e. higher classed). Since I am homeless I represent the lowest class and thus even middle-class people, to me, are very different and privileged.

A simple example of this is sleeping over at someones house once in a while. Because the class comforts of people with a home (refrigerator, TV, laundry, shower, etc..) are so largely disproportionate to my own, I slowly become acclimated to my visits and I begin to crave and even depend on my sleep-overs. Thus the more I visit the higher class, the more miserable my lower class status becomes. This effect has been well documented by Psychiatrists and Psychologists, most notably in the book about gestalt therapy "Ego, Hunger, and Aggression."

Because of this fact, greatly, I choose not to spend my time surrounded by class-comforts which aren't really mine or readily accessible to me. To do so would be masochistic or sociopathic. Some may call me an isolationist and I could not argue with them, though i get along well with the poor, the downtrodden, the different, and other member of my lower class. I would plead that I am simply in an early stage of psychological healing and as such need to be left alone.

It is my sincerest hope and prayer that one day I will have developed enough materially, emotionally, and spiritually, so that I can accept all beings as equals regardless of class. But I'm not quite there yet!