Poem: Times of Thoughts

My only happy thought,
a place to rest in peace.
Thoughts of you shine like the sun;
Golden, warm, true,
undilluted by anything but goodness.
It's only my shadow missing you.

While all other thoughts
bubble and froth with
fear and avoidance.
Darkness, regrets, shame,
and doubt.
My past and my future
are equal
in their emptiness.
The present bland and ugly.

Though we have spent
such little time together
you have captured my hope,
the vision of happiness.

Your love,
making me loveable.
Casting my life in turgid shadows.
Everything flat,
when compared to you.

That someone like you,
could love someone like me,
is enough
to bring me to tears.
A strong man in many ways,
I have not felt loved in years.

That someone like you,
could love someone like me,
is a conspiracy by the Universe
to prove to me that it is good...
It's working.

That someone like you
could love someone like me,
gives my life meaning again.

Do you beleive
you are the Goddess yet?
You will
before we are through.
As the energy I feel
pulsing through me
for you
is surely the energy of the Horned God;
Bucking and rutting to unite
with his Goddess through me,
through us:

Vessels of the divine,
the Universe waits for us
to unite with each other.
Kissing, touching, making love,
to itself,
through our bodies, emotions, and spirits.

To know again the Truth:
that the entire world and all it's peoples
were made for this.
Made for the Lovers-
Divided for the sake of union.

And the infinite Goddess-God
is lonely
no more.